Saturday, May 29, 2010

Sickening

I've been going back and forth with myself on whether or not I wanted to do a post about the oil spill.  I think the reason I haven't is because I have such strong feelings about it that I can't really put it into words.  I feel sick every time I think about it.  I am angry, furious really.  It is sickening and heartbreaking and I have really been trying not to read to much about it or think on it too much.  But just a little while ago I went to msnbc.com and I could not longer avoid it.  This picture was staring me right in the face.
I cried.  I couldn't help it anymore.  It is completely and utterly ridiculous that no one can stop this.  I am furious with the whole situation and with BP for being so irresponsible as to have let this happen in the first place and then being horrible enough to be down playing this for so long and for not knowing how the hell to fix it.  They have ruined our Gulf for years to come.  They have ruined peoples lives because they can no longer work.  We won't know for a long time how many animals will die because of this.  And 11 people lost their lives in the explosion. 

Sickening.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Five Question Friday

The little girl I babysit is currently napping so I thought I would do Mama M's Five Question Friday now instead of waiting until 9 tonight.  Go me!  Here are Belli's answers to this weeks questions.

1.  Is there something you have always wanted to try but just can't muster up the courage to actually do it?
Yea...walking!  Mommy's pretty sure I could do it but I'm just not ready to take that leap of faith yet.

2.  If you had $100 handed to you in cash what would you do with it?
Mommy would make me put it in my savings account.

3.  What was your favorite piece of playground equipment as a child?
I haven't had a lot of playground time so I haven't decided on a favorite yet but I can tell you that I hate when someone tries to make me crawl through the tunnel.  Hate. It.

4.  Do you prefer a sweet or hearty breakfast?
Milk with carnation every morning...so sweet.

5.  Are you a neat freak or messy bessy?
Messy Bessy all the way!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Devastated

Earlier this month I blogged about a call I got from a daycare that Belli has been on the wait list for for over a year.  They take special needs kids and they finally had a spot open.  We went to meet with them early last week and things looked promising.  I was so excited to finally be able to either get a part time job or take more classes so I could finish will school sooner.

Well, it turns out she won't be able to go.  They spoke with her neurosurgeon and he said that she did not think a daycare environment would be very safe for her unless she had a one on one aide at all times.  Since the daycare cannot provide that she can't go.  I never in a million years thought that she would not be able to go.  I am completely and utterly devastated.

I emailed her doctor's nurse to ask what his reasoning was but I haven't heard back from her yet.  I mean she does have a problem with her spine and falling can be dangerous for her.  I know that.  But she's 3.  She's going to fall sometimes.  And she has to go to school.  I just don't know what I am supposed to do at this point.  I have been stuck for the past year not being able to do anything.  It is really hard to feel good about yourself when you know you are going to be depending on your parents for at least another two or three years.  Thank God I have them though or I would literally be out on the streets.

Oh well, no since crying over spilled milk.  Nothing I can do about it now!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Cooking With Children

I just wanted to do a real quick post before I went to bed.  One of my blogging buddies, Crayon Wrangler, is doing a blog hop and this week's theme is lesson's learned while cooking with children.  Mine is pretty short but it is a good lesson.

Belli loves to crack eggs.  And by loves I mean she has an unhealthy obsession.  So my lesson that I have learned is to not let a 2.5 year old decide how many eggs we need when we are having breakfast for dinner because she will crack all 12 of them if allowed.  Just keep that in mind!

Potty Training-Day 2 and Questions for Potty Training Mommas

Yesterday was day two of potty training and Belli is still doing really well with it.  She only had one accident early in the morning.  I told her when she woke up that I wasn't going to ask her if she needed to go potty so she needed to tell me on her own.  The majority of the time she did tell me.  She even pooped twice and told me that she needed to go.  I did catch myself asking her a few times if she needed to go but for the most part I let her tell me.

I wish you could see the excitement on her face when she gets her next letter.  I am so glad I had that idea.  I am also so glad that the box of letters I bought also have the lower case letters because Belli is already on letter V.

Once she gets through the upper case letters we will start on the lower case letters.

I do have a couple of questions for any of you who have been through potty training:

1.  After how many days were you brave enough to venture out without diapers on.  When we went to dinner Sunday night I put a pull-up on her just in case.  she stayed dry but I'm still not sure I'm ready to go out with just panties on.

2.  If you used prizes during potty training what happened when you quit giving the prizes?  Is there a process to slowly stop giving the prizes or did you just quit one day?  Right now Belli's sole purpose of going potty is to get a letter so I'm afraid that once the letters run out she might decide she doesn't want to go potty anymore. 

I would appreciate any thoughts or advice.  Thanks!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Potty Training-Day 1 and a Duh Moment!

I have finally bit the bullet and decided I MUST potty train Belli now.  She will be 3 in August and just don't have any more excuses.  So this morning after she woke up and used the potty I put panties on her and didn't look back.

And so far it has actually gone pretty well!  She only had one accident all day. 

Belli LOVES letters so I bought her some letter magnets and I told her that each time she used the potty she would get her next letter.  This didn't work out well at first because she would tell me every 5 seconds that she needed to go potty so she could get a letter.  But, once she realized that she had to actually poo poo or tee tee before she would get a letter she stopped.  Now, instead of telling me she needs to go potty she just says, "I'm ready to get my (insert next letter here)."

Tomorrow may be a different story though.  Today I did a lot of prompting, asking her every few minutes if she needed to go.  Tomorrow I think I am going to quit asking her and see if she will start telling me she needs to go.  Wish us luck!

On a funny note, Belli knows the alphabet better than I do.  We went out to dinner tonight with some family and before we left Belli was on letter F.  So before we left I got the G and the I to bring with me in case she needed to go while we were at the restaurant (I put a pull up on her while we were out).  Well she went once and got her G then a little bit later she told me she was ready to get her H.  So we went to the potty and got back to the table and she was all excited about getting her H.  It was then that I realized that I had actually skipped H and went straight to I.  She was not happy that I had forgotten her H.  Obviously I need to go back to kindergarten.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Five Question Friday

Time for Mama M's Five Question Friday.  This is my first time in three weeks to do one.  Shame on me!  I was wanting to start having Belli answer the questions on video like I did once before but I work on Fridays and by the time I get home and get stuff done I just don't have time.  So, until I am done working on Fridays which I think is some time in June I'll just do regular answers for her like I was.  So here goes!

1.  Do you have an iPhone, and if so how do you get apps and what are you favorite?
No, I do not have an iPhone and neither does mommy.  I do have a thermometer though that I like to talk on!

2.  What is your fondest memory of K-3rd grade?
If I'm anything like my mommy it will be getting in trouble for talking all the time.

3.  What makes your cringe at the though of touching?
I don't really like to have any type of mess on my hands.  If I get something on my hands I will sit with my hands stretched out and not touch anything until it gets wiped off.  I'm weird like that.

4.  If you could have any celebrity show up at your door who would it be and why?
Cinderella.  Because she's friends with Jack and Gus Gus.

5.  What would you say is your best physical feature?
My eyelashes.  They are looooong.  Mommy is jealous.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Graduation Pictures!

Here are some pictures from graduation today.  And I'm actually in a few of them!  I really hate putting pictures on here with me in them because I've never really been very photogenic but these aren't too bad =-)

In her white gown before graduation
Belli and Me
On the stage getting ready to sing
Belli getting her diploma
Belli admiring her diploma
After graduation
Belli and me with Betty Bell, the amazing woman who started The Bell Center

Five Question Friday and Gettin to Know You

Sorry I am so late with Five Question Friday!  It's been hard for me to get it done these past few months because I work on Fridays and by the time I get home I'm to lazy to do it.  So I'm going to do it now along with Getting to Know You.  And since I am doing them together I am going to answer all of them with my answers instead of Belli's answers like I do with Five Question Friday.  I thought that might be a little confusing.  Here goes.

Five Question Friday with Mama M.
1.  Take your pick:  date-night, girls night out, or night out alone.
Well seeing as that I haven't gone out on a date in years (yes years) I would pick date night.  But also seeing as that I have no potential prospects for a date it's not likely to happen so I would have to pick night out alone.  Man that would be nice!

2.  Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No.

3.  What is your favorite flower and why?
The fire and ice rose.  And I don't know why.  I guess I just think it's cool,

4.  If you could go back in time, what advice would you give yourself?
I would tell myself to pay attention to those feelings you get about certain people I pushed to the back of my head and dismissed before.

5.  If you won the lottery what is the very first thing you would do?
Buy a house.

Getting to Know You with Keely.
1.  The most expensive thing hanging in my closet is?
Belli's baptism gown.

2.  Have you ever played a team sport?
I played softball from the time I was five until I got pregnant with Belli.  I also played flag football one year in high school and three years in college.

3.  If you were a bug what kind would you be?
Definitely a lady bug.  I am terrified of bugs but lady bugs I can handle.  So I figure if I ever came across someone who was scared of bugs like me maybe they wouldn't kill me.

4.  Where on your body is the worst place to get sunburned?
Definitely my rear end.  Of course that only happens in the tanning bed but still.

5.  Are you happy?
For the most part.  There are some things though that could be better.

6.  People are always abbreviating things.  Are there certain abbreviations that bother you?
Not that I know of.

7.  Do you love where you live or could you live anywhere?
I definitely love where I live but I could live anywhere that was like it.  I live in the suburbs and that's where I always want to live.

8.  What, if any, extreme measure do you go to to keep yourself from overeating when you are full?
Sometimes if I am at a restaurant and the waiter hasn't come to get my plate yet I will pour ketchup or pepper or something gross on my food so I won't eat anymore. 

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Graduation Tomorrow!

Belli's graduation from The Bell Center is tomorrow!  I have been looking forward to this for over two years now and I could not be more excited.  I'm going to try and get as many pictures as possible and post them some time tomorrow.  I'm also going to video tape it but I am not sure that I will be able to upload any of the video.  We will see though.  Wish us luck!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Long Time No See

Sorry it's been almost a whole week since I posted.  Normally I would make up some excuse about how I've been soooo busy with school and work and blah blah blah.  But since school is out until June and I was off last Friday I don't really have that excuse.

Honestly, I've just been feeling kind of down lately and I haven't really felt like posting anything.  But, I figured if I wanted to keep my readers I might should post something.

-Belli is doing well.  She had croup over the weekend but seems to be doing fine now.  She will be graduating from The Bell Center on Sunday and I am really looking forward to it.  They get to wear cute little white gowns and I will get to walk her across the stage.  It's going to be great!

-Some of you may know that I have been having trouble with my knee this past month.  I finally broke down and went to and ortho last Friday and he is pretty sure I tore my ACL.  He asked me to describe my symptoms and I told him.  Then he asked me how I injured it.  Honestly, I have no clue!  One day it just kinda hurt and then the next day it hurt really bad and has been bothering me ever since.  I told him about Belli and how I am picking her up and carrying her around a lot and he did say that it's possible that it had just been used and stretched out so much over time that it finally just gave way.  I had an MRI yesterday and I will see the ortho again tomorrow for the results.  So, unfortunately, it looks like a surgery might be in my future.

-Mother's day was ok.  Belli was sick so it wasn't as nice and peaceful as I was hoping it would have been but we did spend some time sitting outside on a big quilt watching Cinderella.  This was before I knew she had croup.  I actually thought she just had a sinus infection and the outside wouldn't bother her too much.  Oops.  Belli (with the help of my mom) did get me The Blind Side for Mother's Day.  Can we say excited?

-I've decided that subconsciously the reason I have been putting off potty training and self feeding for so long (along with the logical reasons) is that I'm afraid Belli is going to be my only child and I kinda want to hold on to that for as long as possible.  I know I can't keep her a baby forever but I can at least try!  =-)

-I swear I am going to start potty training soon.  I had planned on starting this past Sunday and doing the potty training boot camp but she was sick and then she spent Monday with her dad so I wasn't able to.  Seriously, I'm going to do it though.  Unless I do indeed find out that I have torn my ACL and will need surgery.  In which case potty training will be out of the question since I won't even be able to get myself around let alone get Belli to the potty in time. 

Ok, I think that's it for now.  Hopefully it won't be so long until I post again this time!  Happy Tuesday!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Belli's Birth Story

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Day two of Mama M's Mothers Day Mania is about the birth stories of our children.  Obviously I only have one birth story and to be real honest with you it relatively boring.  But I will tell you anyway!  I'm actually going to cheat a little because I've answered this question before when I did a Q & A post so I'm just going to copy and paste some of it.  Enjoy!

Belli was in a breech position and she stayed that way the whole pregnancy.  I scheduled a c-section for a week before her due date.  I went in super early in the morning, maybe around 6 or so.  Waited around forever.  Then Belli was born around 9:30...I think.  When they took Belli out she was not breathing.  Her first APGAR score was 1.  She bounced back quickly though and her second APGAR score was 9.  They brought her over to me and I asked to see her feet (which I knew were clubbed before she was born).  The nurses (or whoever they were) just sort of looked at each other and then they told me about her knees too.  They called an orthopedist in the next day and that's when he told me she likely had Larsen's Syndrome.  So that's my birth story!

See, it was pretty boring.  But I wanted to be a good sport and play along anyway.  Make sure and visit Mama M's blog to join in!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Mother's Day Mania-Whoopsie Wednesday

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For the next 5 days Mama M will be hosting Mother's Day Mania.  Today's theme is Whoopsie Wednesday.  This is where we tell those stories that we would rather not tell.  You know, the ones about how you accidentally wacked your kids head on the door frame or wall when you rounded a corner or how you tripped going up the stairs while holding your child.  You know...THOSE stories.

For the record I have actually done both of those things but I have another one that tops them all.

When Belli was just a wee little babe (probably around 3 or 4 months) I took her to the mall with me for a little outing.  Obviously she was still in the small car seats that pop into the base and the stroller that goes with it.  So when we got there I just took the car seat out and popped it into the stroller and off we went. 

We were there for a while and it was sort of hot in the mall.  She started getting fussy and I could tell she was uncomfortable so I unbuckled the car seat straps so I could take her jacket off and so she would have some room to move around.  Then we walked around for a little whil and I got a little bit of shopping done.

About and hour later I decide to leave.  So I walk back out to my car, pop the car seat out of the stroller and put it back in the base in the car.  I put the stroller back in my car, got in the drivers seat, cranked the car up, and we were on our way home.

I was horrified at what I saw when I went to get Belli out of her car seat when we got home.  I had forgotten to buckle her back up after I took the straps off in the mall!  I had driven all the way home with her unstrapped.  All I could think about were the what-ifs.  It scared me so bad I was shaking and I just sat in the car with her a boohooed like a little baby.  It was awful.

So there you go.  My big mommy whoopsie!  Wow, it felt nice to get that off my chest!

If you want to participate in Mother's Day Mania make sure and check out Mama M's blog!

Monday, May 3, 2010

The Call I Have Been Waiting For

As some of you may know because of Belli's special needs I have not been able to get her into a daycare in order for me to either get a job or take more classes so I can finish school sooner.  There are only a couple of daycares in our area that take special needs children and of those I have only heard great things about one.  Well after being on the wait list for 15 months I received a call today that they MIGHT have a spot for her in August.  I was so excited after I got of the phone that I almost started crying.

The way the daycare works is that they take 70% typical kids and 30% special needs kids.  They are highly accredited and just have a really amazing program for both the typical and special needs kids.  They even provide the therapy that the kids need while they are at daycare.  The reason that I say they might have a spot instead of definitely is because they will need to assess Belli's needs before they know whether or not they can take her.  Because they want to provide the special needs kids with everything they need sometimes they just aren't able to take a child at the time if they don't think they will be able to do what they need to.  But, hopefully now that Belli is doing so well walking in her walker and getting closer to independence they will be more likely to take her.

They have either a 2, 3, or 5 day program.  I am not sure that I will get a choice if they do take her.  It may just depend on what they have available.  I am really hoping for either a 2 or 3 day spot.  Instead of going ahead and getting a full time job like I had originally planned I am leaning more towards just taking as many classes as I can so I can get finished with school sooner.  So, I won't be able to afford a 5 day spot and a 2 or 3 day spot will be enough days to allow me to take more classes and have time during those days to do school work.  I could also probably get some type of part time job.

We'll see though.  I'm not going to get my hopes up too much though.  They may very well decide that they can't take her right now.  But I sure hope they do!