Thankfulness

This will be a relatively short post as I am extremely full from all of the yummy food that I have had today and therefore very sleepy! However, before I turn in for the night I wanted to write a little bit about thankfulness.

I believe that this is the first Thanksgiving in my 23 years of life that I have actually understood what it means to be thankful. Now don't get me wrong...I know the definition of "thankful." And in the past whenever people would ask me what I was thankful for this year I would give the typical answer of family, a roof over my head, food to eat, etc. Now those are all things to be thankful for because at this time when our economy is so bad there are so many people in the world that do not have those things to be thankful for. But, after the past few months and the trials that I have been through with Belli I have come to understand a deeper meaning of the word "thankful."

I am so thankful that Isabelle is here with me now that I don't even know how to put it into words. There was a time shortly after I found out she had to have the fusion that the fear of her not being here was so overwhelming it was hard to get out of bed. But there she was. Every morning waking up yelling, "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy." And after both of her surgeries she was still here yelling, "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy," every morning without fail. There are times when I think, "If you say yell my name one more time there is going to be a mommy shaped whole in our front door." But then I snap back in to reality and know how blessed I am that she is even here yelling my name.

Since I have started this blog I have come across so many others who cannot say that they hear their child calling their name in the morning. There are so many evils out there like cancer, heart disease, genetic disorders, and accidents that take children's lives everyday. I have been blessed enough to have not fallen in to that category.

So this year I will simply be thankful for my child. Because I know how easily she could not be here. And I am so blessed, and so thankful that she is.